Hmmm

I am in the thick of deciding between IVF or adoption....AGAIN!! I can't sleep because I just want clarity on the situation. I know only God has the ultimate answer but I do not know what that is. I get different feedback from friends about waiting, not the right timing etc...but it's been a little over 8 years now and I grow more and more gloomy by the day. It's hard to watch days, months and years go by like this. Sometimes I start secluding myself, sometimes I lash out at others..it's such a mess. I wish I had someone to talk to that could truly understand my pain and not feed me rainbows and sunshine. WAH

Nov 4th

It has been too long my friends. Things in life are going well. My husband and I are thinking about taking the plunge into a homestudy to begin the adoption process. It is so sad to me that  you can look through hundreds of photos of children in waiting. Oh if the world could be different and everyone could have a loving place to call home. I'm thinking about doing a adoption support group at my church for people that want to adopt to connect with people that have adopted. I wonder if it would get peoples interest. I would like it to be a couples thing because so many guys have doubts, questions and concerns but stay in the background trying to be the supportive husband. I'll keep praying and discussing with my husband to see where God leads us. Blessings to all!!