Hello May, it seems as things in my life are going ok. I found a sleep specialist who put me on light therapy because I have delayed sleep phase disorder and chronic insomnia, which basically means I live everyday as if I have 7 hours of jet lag. I have to admit I was a little hesitant to believe after all the meds I've tried that light therapy was going to do anything at all, but here I sit after just a couple months sleeping much better. Almost like a regular human being! I can lay down at a decent hour and fall asleep within one hour and sleep until morning with the only disruptions being my tossing and turning. This is my last week on the therapy and then we see if my body can continue the success on its own. Send me prayers!
In the meantime I took a Full-time job as a Business Analyst that was totally a God thing. This is one main reason I need the prayers that I can keep my sleep schedule as is. I can't go back to the days of falling asleep at 5am and getting up shortly after not rested at all.
Chris and I are still thinking and researching adoption, no update on that front. I thought I was doing ok emotionally with the whole infertility thing until my brother told me his girlfriend was pregnant. I didn't realize how easily those emotions could rear their ugly heads again. Now I see a pregnant person and feel anger and sadness. I don't dwell on the issue but the pain is there, like another crack in my broken heart.
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