Saying Goodbye is always hard

Wednesday was a sad day as we woke to the news that my husband's grandmother had passed away. He was close to her and even I considered her my grandmother. I have known her for a little more than 12 years now and she has been a better grandmother to me than the two the Lord gave me. She will truly be missed, yet we are happy to know she is with the Lord. We know time will ease the pain, heartache and sadness but will only increase the joy of the wonderful memories we were blessed to make with her.
We will always love and miss you Grandma Carrigan!!!

Hubbs

My husband snores REALLY loud!!!!!

So I went to bed at 11 and actually fell asleep by midnight, but woke back up at 2am...wah!!! Guess it just wasn't meant to be?! The good news is that I FINALLY am going to see a sleep specialist tomorrow, let us all pray that this doctor has a clue what they are doing. It's always been my personal opinion that if my anxiety was given proper medical attention and kept under better control I wouldn't have these sleep issues; the "experts" I've seen do not agree. So tomorrow early evening my fate for the next couple months to a year will be determined...Lord please be with me.

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Bad Reaction

So I must have seem really negative in my previous post because some people kind of freaked out on me. That was just me getting everything off my chest so I could take a deep breath and move on with a new chapter in life.
Today I have a much happier outlook on things and am excited to focus on starting my career. Now to decide if I should take more classes, get certifications or just plain jump out there is the question!?

Homesick

Started off 2011 homesick and the feeling never left. I've chatted with the hubbs about moving back home to TEXAS!! He said his home is wherever I'm at, super sweet, but kind of sad if you think about it. He's a military kid (or brat as they say) and it's hurts my heart that he doesn't consider anywhere he's been 'home'.
We both started looking for jobs back home and we'll see where the good Lord takes us. I've spent the last 4 years in NOVA attempting to start a family. I've failed miserably at that and now wonder if I should have focused on my career first. I could be someone or something by now, but here I sit feeling like a loser. No kids, no successful career and a degree collecting dust. It's about time I get off my booty and get into finance and see where this road leads. If I can't have kids now it's not like I won't be able to not have kids in 5 years right?

Guess whoever said you can't have two negatives in a sentence never walked a block in my shoes!!

2-2-11

Wow how time flies! It's almost been a year since my last post and I still can't sleep. Guess all the sleepless nights lead to me totally forgetting about my blog haha! nobody reads this crap anyway